I have spoken a lot about my mental health in various ways on the blog but often I don't mention how it impacts my reading but today is the day.
This topic has been on my mind recently because my mental health hasn't been the best recently and I have no desire to read at all.
This is quite annoying to me because I obviously enjoy reading. At the moment, I am reading a lot of books that are so good but due to my mental state, I don't want to finish them. I am afraid that due to my poor mental health will hinder my enjoyment and I will associate it with it.
The books lay unread and I get disappointed at myself for not reading. I see my Goodreads stay at the same number and I get disappointed in myself.
The cycle continues.
When my mental health is bad I often get little sleep as well which again affects everything. I tend to read more at night and when I am tired I don't want to read even though it helps me sleep. I also don't want to read it because I am afraid of not enjoying the book.
Again. The cycle continues.
I know that this is a common thing with my mental health. That I find reading hard and that I have a lot of distractions. On the NHS website, they literally ask you if you have been distracted or are finding it hard to do things you love.
Knowing that I am not alone makes me feel better somehow. Like it is a comfort.
Like other times, I hope that I can escape the reading slump and get back to doing what I love.