Since I turned 21, I have written a piece about the current year and what to expect in the coming year. After last year I told myself to expect the unexpected because I had a really crappy mental health year in 2019 and did not know that it would happen.If only I had known.
It's weird because at the time of writing it COVID was a thing. I remember seeing a news article about it before I went to sleep on the 31st December and thought it will probably be nothing. That it wouldn't affect the West.
Of course, I was wrong. I told myself to expect the unexpected, and I may have jinxed it.
As I write this, I am officially 24. Birthday plans out the window as we are in a third lockdown. Trust me when I say that I would rather be in lockdown than be open, but as someone who works in fast food, it doesn't feel like lockdown because I served over 250 people yesterday.
Like most people in their 20s, I do feel like I have lost some time. I'm still living at home. I'm working in a job that I don't see as permanent, but I know how grateful I am to have it. I have a dream and feel anxious to peruse it, but I think the pandemic has told us anything. It might be to just go for it because anything can happen.
I just have to tell myself that.
It's weird to say that the last year, I did do something. I read most books, watched the most films and completed my degree. Compared to the previous year, my mental health was good. It was bad ar some times, but things got really blurry in 2019. The thing is that we never know what is going to happen. Some things are not imaginable, and others can come in complete surprise.
But let's be real, we can never know.
I want to be a realist. I know that like last year, this is not going to be my year. We are still in the thick of it, and it's going to be a while to change.
It has made me miss the smallest things, but that has only made me want them back even more. We all want something we can't have and want to do everything to get it back.
I can't predict this year. I know that I am now 24 and I'm going to try to do the best with what I have.